meltingaway

This morning I woke up and went for a jog/walk, 1/5 jogging 4/5 walking.  I was able to clear my head enough to realize I need to be thankful for what I have.   I also turned on music while I was getting ready for work.  I love dancing around like an idiot.

Yesterday was the worst day I have had in months.  It began on Monday, I was temporarily laid off from my second job.  Without that income I can’t pay all my bills.  The stress from that built and built.  Then I wrote that extremely honest blog.  Opening up that way on top of money worries was like salt on an open wound.  I began a fast downward spiral into to hopelessness and depression.  I did eat a bowl of ice cream and 2 taquitos but stopped there emotional eating there and went to talk to a friend.  I took a couple loads of laundry with me and we talked out the situation. 

I am not sure were I found it, but I am at peace with everything today.  I know I have been through worse and the only reason things were so bed yesterday was I was focused on problems and not solutions.  Opening up and getting things off my chest still scares me.  I can’t believe I said what I said.  I never take off the mask that way.  At the same time I have a goof grin on my face because I know I am here for all the right reasons.  I am here to support and encourage others as I learn from them and I am supported and encouraged by them.