Weekly Goals & Self Sabotage (Another Deep Look Into My Head)
Comments(5) I gained 2 pounds this week.
Why did I gain two pounds?
The easy answer: I exercised 2 days and ate allot of junk.
Hard answer: I was freaking out over my 8 weeks of no gains. I kept thinking it can’t be this easy to have loss after loss every week.
I sabotaged myself to continue the lie that I had really been trying to loose weight all those times that I didn’t work out and ate everything I could get my hands on. This so frustrating, if it weren’t for the mental part losing weight would be a breeze. Unfortunately it is 95% mental for me. I enjoy exercise, I like eating healthy food, I like drink water. I just haven’t always liked those things. As I learned to like them and began seeing result I also saw a large piece of my identity slipping away. It is scary how much being fat is a part of who I am and losing that is like losing myself. It makes me want to scream!!! What am I so afraid of? Am I afraid that my friends will not like me anymore? Am I afraid I will not like myself anymore? Am I afraid that I can’t do it? Am I afraid that I will gain it all back? Why can’t I just let Fat Jessie go?
Weekly Goals:
- Drink 12 - 8 oz glasses of water daily.
- Exercise 30 minutes 5 days.
- Spend 5 minutes visualizing my success daily.
- Follow my food plan 5 days.
Nothing complicated, nothing over the top, just simple and very attainable goals.
